Today was pretty much a tough time for me. I've been crying since this morning. Bearing the pain that is the backache I've had for months. It's just got worse. I had the computer left turned on since last night and so I thought I surf the net for a while. As I read the headline of one of one a Jonas fansite, I thought something was wrong. I scrolled down and just to find a news about one of the JB street team leader, Stephanie passed away. It's really hard to believe and she's just went online in less than 24 hours ago and next thing I know she's gone forever. The song, "Eternity" played at the background as I read through Myspace bulletin regarding her death. I feel as if I've just lost a Jonas sister. Her death has a minor impact on me. I cant help but cried when I found out.

Dearest Stephanie Marie Gotz,

you will be missed by all of us jonas fans. tho we never really talked before but i know you for your amazing effort on running the street team. you work incredibly hard to make jb street team the best street team there is. you are irreplaceable and there'll be no other street team leader that just as awesome as you are. i wish i would've add you on myspace earlier on and get to know you. now it's too late as you've move on to another world. every tears have fallen down my face were all for you. lastly, you will always be in my thoughts. rest in peace, sweetheart.

I'll see you in eternity.

much love,
Lizzie

hands down! best video i've seen at the moment. some of the best quotes from the video;

"how old are they?...wait..dont tell me until i reach prison"
"oh snap! this kid doesn't even have hair on his balls"
"what kind of 15 years old make dinner plans on Titanic?"
"There's nothing quite like finding out the girl you have a crush on is a raging paedophile"
"the young one with the curly hair, if you ever see me, you. should. run."


im totally planning to join the Team Jonas fanclub. I just load some money into my debit card but currently Im having an issue with my debit card which disabled me from registering. :[.

i was gonna blog about this few days ago but i forgot. so, few night ago, i had a dream about nick. it's crazy coz i'd never ever thought of dreaming of him but i guess dream happened unexpectedly. it's pretty weird but cute dream, i guess. here's how the dream goes; it all started in a cinema where the movie has already ended and suddenly, i saw nick sitting at the very end and there's a girl next to him, i think (miley, perhaps). and i was like,"heeeeeeeeeeeey nick!. *extend hands* how are you?". and nick was like,"im great" and he gave me a big ass smile. then i kind of have to go and so i did. the weird thing is that i didn't even say goodbye to nick. :(. without warning, nick came running after me and pushed some random guy walking next to me and pull me closer to him and give me a kiss on the cheek. AGAIN, weird and awkwaaaaard (say it in joe's voice. hehe). I was freezing right at that spot and look nowhere but right in nick's eyes. well, when i was supposed to be saying,"what was that for?" but instead, i give him a kiss back right on his cheek. then i hugged him like there's no tomorrow. i cant exactly remember what went after that but all i remember was that me and nick went on a date. and at the end of the dream, we broke up tho due to some fights that we had. bad news.

when i had a dream about JB (which i haven't had it for quite a while), i usually had a smile on my face but this time, i didn't.

speaking of nick, on march 11th, which is 4 days ago was Nicholas Jerry Jonas Day. As in, to mark the day where he announced to the world that he has diabetes. His diabetes speech never fails to make me cry. :']

I've been attacked by flu (note: not bird flu). Followed by terrible cough. I've been sick these few days. And it has been raining for a while now. :(. So, I haven't update this blog for almost a month now. I've been away for 2 weeks. It's amazing that I managed to survive without internet for 2 freaking weeks!. I break my old record. Sweet!. Haha.

So, last Thursday, I just got back from Kuala Lumpur. KL for short. And I have a not-so-great time. I was "that" closer to meet the awesome Leena but my dad made a ticket cancellation at the last minute. Way to ruin my plan, dad!. >:[. I was supposed to go back on Sunday but he changed the flight to Thursay instead. Grrrrr!. Which also reminded me of the incident last time where I was supposed to meet up with Sofia but then her mom wasn't allowed her to go out. :[. Seriously, I have a bad luck.

The good news is that on my way to the airport, I went to Carrefour in Klang and I got my Raybans Wayfarer there. Thank God for discount otherwise Im going to have a heart attack. Now I dont know what Im gonna do with my knock off wayfarer which I bought early this year. :/. Oh and I bought the Japanese edition of JB self titled cd too!. :D. Unfortunately, the cd case cracked. I was asking for another copy but it's the only copy that's left. *sigh*. Oh well.

p/s; Leena, if you're reading this, I just want you to know that we're definitely gonna meet up real soon. Sooner than you think. Haha. Well, I hope so. OMG! you have no idea how I actually imagine us doing the "campfire" thing that JB and the crew always did before the show.

On a random note: I confess, I have a slight obsession with cereal. Thanks Garbo!. <3